And the follow up..

The past two days have been absolutely peachy, and I mean it! Most people only use that term sarcastically, but not in this case!

I went out with Fez yesterday, it was great. We saw "Get Smart" and it was good, better than I expected anyway. I was expecting it to be really crappy and the jokes to be cheap, it had its cheesy/cheap moments but it was pretty good. I bought these lovely new jeans with diamante butterflies on the back pockets, and for once they're LONG ENOUGH!!! All my other jeans are half mast.. Oh, and I bought this beautiful, sleeveless pink, deep v-neck, loose fitting top that goes in at the middle, kinda thing, and it's got this ornate diamante butterfly in the middle with diamantes across the bottom of the bust line (I can wear it without a bra, score!!). Picked with Ezra's help, of course. ;) I got home and Mum loved it, and thought I should go shopping with Fez more often, which was refreshing.

Oh, in regards to that whole "Poker night" incident.. On the way to the shopping centre, in Lisa's car, after she got out of the car and went to get petrol, I turned to Ezra and asked him disgruntledly, "So how was the main point of last night?" He just looked at me and calmly replied with,
"Oh, we decided to be good friends to the other people there and not do it." I was very taken aback. What he said was pretty much all there is to say regarding his reasoning. I explained to him that I wasn't really happy with the whole idea, and that the more I thought about it, the less happy I was with it. He understood perfectly. He apparently wasn't really all that thrilled with it either. He coulda fooled me. He said today that he may reluctantly smoke some at the next sleepover, and was all reassuring about it, which was good. I can't say I'm completely comfortable with it anyway, the boy has income and I can't help but worry he'll blow it on it and end up like my Dad, and you know the younger you start, the higher the risk of pot psychosis? Yeah. He probably wouldn't do that to me but I still can't help but worry. If it were anyone else I wouldn't mind as much.. I'm just protective of him, he's the same way towards me, so he understands. Again, everything's worked out well, because we talked!! :D

We also discussed my whole anger thing, because early in the day I noticed Fez was more assertive and somewhat nasty, and I admired the assertiveness, just I didn't particuarly like the nastiness. So when we sat down for lunch in the extremely overcrowded food court, I said I admired his newfound assertiveness, and he said that after one time where him and Lisa showed up at my place 5 minutes early, with me only halfway ready, because I'm used to them being about half an hour late and I was extremely frustrated because I looked like a mess and I didn't have time to get all my things. Ezra took this as me blaming him for being on time, and decided he wasn't going to take that sitting down. It was a misunderstanding, I wasn't mad at him at all, I was simply frustrated with the bad timing. I recognise that I shouldn't have taken my frustration out on him, I was rather snappy, but he didn't say anything to me - he was scared I'd yell at him, which made me awfully sad. Am I that aggressive that my own partner is scared to stand up to me in the heat of the moment? Well, yes, apparently, but with him that applies to everyone else aswell, as Ezra's more on the passive side (he's nobody's fool, though) and easily frightened. We had a long talk about it over lunch and it was all good - now he fully understands my problem and misunderstandings like that shouldn't happen in the near future. 

I consider myself extremely lucky to have a partner that can also be my counsellor, a skilled communicator that I can discuss anything with. He's one of the most emotionally intelligent guys I've ever met. I've never had a boyfriend like that before, and they seem to come about once in a blue moon. I can't say how blessed I feel. I wrote him a letter for his Birthday (as that's the kind of thing he likes) and half of it was describing how bewildered I was by him and how that, for the first time in my life, I just couldn't find the words to say how I really felt for him besides "You were never less than everything to me, I love you more than I can say". I've never not been able to find words for something. Oh well, there's a first time for everything, and I'm glad it was this, really.. :)
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Comments (1)

  1. EasyToSay

    Hey Molly, I guess what you are saying about him is he’s your best friend!

    Because all the qualities you mentioned here, were best friend qualities.

    I’m so glad you’ve found each other
    I hope the rest of your week-end is great. And thanks for the Get Smart review, I’ve been thinking of seeing it, but like you I thought it would be cheesy and corny.

    July 13, 2008
  2. meredith

    Glad you had a great time with Fez. You are quite lucky to be dating a skilled communicator – they are few and far between!!

    July 13, 2008
  3. Mezlie

    Thanks, you guys!

    TheAlreadyJaded – I guess we are..

    E2S – He is my best friend, really, thankyou for point that out, because it’s very true.

    Meri – Amen XD haha, thanks.

    July 21, 2008
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